This rant is probably the most beautiful things I have ever read. So first, you must read it before I continue on.
I have been trying for a good month now to fathom how to write an ode to all the nice guys, and I wish I was lying. But its the truth. I have thought time and time again how I have no guy friends this year, and I understand why. Many of them felt it was time to be jerks, because they wouldn't get laid otherwise. I guess its true, and I do not have an answer to why. Also, I have hormones. I have hooked up with many of my good guy friends, and it saddens me because you now create an air that cannot be taken back.
I wanted to create this post as a follow up to honestly and truly say, I'm sorry. I am so sorry because I have been that girl. That hypocritical clueless girl. I have been the flirt, I have been the girl needing an ego boost, I have been the girl who knows full well that I am treating you badly, and not changing my ways. I have also been that girl who has dated the wrong guy time and time again. And why I am truly sorry, is because I am still that girl. I'm sorry I haven't figured it all out, and I still haven't.
What I loved most about this rant is the undying hope expressed. I ask to please please please, do not give up on me, I am still learning. I can't explain why I've done the things I have done, but I can express that you have saved my life time and time again, taking the bullet that sometimes even I have fired. You are truly a man, a husband, a friend, and a selfless lover. Do not give up hope, we do grow up. I will grow up. And one day, I will be choosing you.
Thank you, for I can't live without you.
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