When talking to Sam I had hit another conclusion about myself. About why I don't want to take initiative anymore. If I ask you out, or kiss you, I don't want you to like me because you are appreciated by someone. I want you to go out with me or kiss me because you actually want me for who I am. Is it really too much to ask?
Jean messaged me saying she has "information." Basically meaning, she talked to Eric. Oh yay, moment of truth: is Becky off her rocker?
Maybe I'm just picky. I've been hurt, I know that. I just don't want to be hurt again. Maybe I am just not ready.
I feel bad because I never meant to make Adam second in my life. I don't want to waste what we have, and by no means make him second. But at the same time I am in need of contact. I can't have Adam right now, because he is 3000 miles away. It makes it difficult when I need someone to hold my hand or hold me tight to take away my burdens.
But as I said, I'm right here. Come get me if you want me. You have 58 school days left.